Things I NEED to know to get through the day.

“Say you find out something about your husband, like he got another wife and some kids… what I want to know is – how do you kill a man in his sleep?”

How does one “hit the bottom and work the middle?”

When someone is “not home, just left” where do they go?

The Last 6 Months (all in one post)

I’ve really neglected maintaining a blog this year and am finally sitting down and dedicating a proper post to the last six months (in chronological order).

JANUARY:

The year got off to a VERY dramatic start as you can probably tell from previous posts.  Things had been building up for, I guess, about six months prior to that and then suddenly exploded into what seemed like the end of my life (yes, very dramatic, I know).  Since then I have worked through things and couldn’t be happier with how my life is right now. 

School started up again and pretty much consumed my life.  It was a tough semester but I got through it with a B average.  I was pleased considering how difficult it was.  

FEBRUARY:

I went out for dinner with my BF for a very nice Valentine’s Day at Angelina’s.  Other than that, nothing too memorable stands out in my mind.

MARCH:

School was definitely getting old and spring break couldn’t come soon enough.  My BF had the brilliant idea of going camping!  We found a very nice place in southern Illinois called Garden of the Gods.  It was really nice to get away for a while and spend some relaxing time alone with the love of my life (LOML).  The weather was fairly nice during the day but got pretty cold at night, around 30 degrees.  We went on several hikes, cooked on a campfire, and had lots of FUN (except for the nights we heard wild animals walking outside our tent).

APRIL:

Still busy with school…

MAY:

Finals…

JUNE:

Summer is now in full swing and with summer comes summer school.  Yuck.  I can not wait until I graduate.  I am so ready to enter the workforce and make some much needed MONAYE.  My focus this summer is going to be securing an internship to gain new skills that will allow me to better compete for a job once I graduate.  I got some plants from Home Depot and planted them and put them on my balcony.  They are very nice.

So that’s my life since January!  Nothing too exciting, just living my life and sharing it with my BF.  More blog posts and more exciting blog posts to come in the future.  Stay tuned!

Yay!

Your weekly dose of excitement has arrived!

Choices

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the choices we make and how they shape our lives. I find it strange/interesting/confusing how one seemingly unimportant choice ends up dramatically changing our lives and how if we had simply altered our choice in just the slightest of ways our life would be entirely different. Sometimes I wonder where I would be right now had I not done one thing or another and if I would be happier if I hadn’t. In what ways would I be different? In what ways would I be the same?

Sometimes I wonder if I’ve made the right choices. I think at times my actions and choices contradict the things I value in life. I make these choices fully realizing they go against what I know I should do and yet I still feel that in some way they benefit me. It’s almost like I don’t want to do what I know I should do. Do you ever feel like neither of the two options are what you want? What does one do in situations such as these?

the tbones pcast

It’s been several months since I purchased my Mac and I just now have gotten to creating a podcast. I still have a little more to edit but it is very near finished! I can’t wait to start podcasting regularly!

Be on the lookout for it.

Sometimes

there are things that a person just can’t change no matter how much they would like to.

Self-induced Delusions

It began. Again. Just like before, beginning again. Again a new beginning. Though the same, it was different. It was better. Beginning better, just like before. It hadn’t been long since before and in some ways before was still now. Now though, I was happy. Silently happily I sat. While happily sitting I thought. Outloud. There was no one around. It was better to think alone I thought. Sometimes. Sometimes I wished there was someone to listen. There were things that needed to be heard. It should be heard. I would smile. I thought about the things I wanted to say. I was happy. Happily I thought those things that should be heard.

Content or happy? Is there a difference? Was I content at being happy? Crazily I pondered these questions. Rolling around in my head. Happily content? Or just content at being happy?

It is in the silence that I find the comforting loneliness that wets my parched palette. Silently comforting. In comfort I sit. I sit when I think. Outloud. Sometimes. I think when I sit. Sometimes. If I’m tired then I stand. If I’m rested then I sit. Sitting restlessly. Standing to wait, only for that moment when I will sit. Hush. A baby cries. I hear it. But only when I sit. I am happy now, if only for a minute. Minutes vanish as seconds flutter by. The world is changing, always beginning. And so, it begins. Again.