Over the past six weeks I have spent a great deal of time trying to understand how and why the events of my life have taken a 90 degree turn for the worse in respect to relationships. I have never understood WHY a person would choose to cheat on their partner rather than have a mature discussion about what each person’s needs are. It is hard for me to fathom the thought process involved in deciding to throw away a years worth of memories for a one time self-gratification sexual escapade. I understand that every moment in a relationship is not peachy keen but that does not mean a person should throw everything away, lie, and deceive their partner for one night of ecstasy without any explanation or discussion.
This has confused me until I had an epiphany tonight. He lives his life by the old cliché – sharing is caring! NOW it makes sense. Gosh, I am completely retarded. He cheated on me because he cares! I bet he thinks I never cared about him because I never cheated on him.
Everything is MY fault.
